Saturday, 5 July 2014

Bye Bye Breast

One of the many things that has shocked me about having breast cancer is the grim reality of breast reconstruction. Surgeons can do lots of clever things to rebuild a post-mastectomy chest where a breast used to be - it's a medical triumph, an art, a complex emotional and physical science, a risk, a long-term commitment. I'm not going to delve too deep here into the options and pros and cons of breast reconstruction; I don't know yet whether I'm going to have it done, or whether to simply have my troublesome breast removed and move into the future with an uncomplicated chest. It's a difficult decision.

But there is one thing I do know: I have to say goodbye to what I currently have. Whatever I end up with - definitely a scar, maybe flatness, maybe lopsidedness, maybe firm silicone curves - I have to say goodbye to the soft, scar-free, genuinely natural breast that I have now. It's mine. It's private. It fed my babies. And soon it'll be gone.


  1. I just followed the trail from my blog to yours. I'm sorry you are dealing with all this stuff. It's hard to say goodbye to our breasts isn't it? It took me a long time to realize I hadn't really done this before my surgery. I wish I had taken pictures of them. So many women do that and it didn't even occur to me. And then it took me three years to admit that I miss them in a blog post. So, I think you are already way ahead of me! But seriously, your posts are obviously written from your heart and they're quite lovely. I'll be back. Thanks for stopping by my blog and commenting, so I could find yours. And thanks for the link over there in your side bar too. Good luck with things from here on out. My best to you.

    1. Thank you Nancy for your kind comment. I'll be back over to yours too!